I'm going mad ! who going be at my side ? why must you leave me when I'm in the weak point. i really can't take some much depression anymore . told myself not to cry but it fail every time . whose know ? i really need some one to be my listener ? who can ? NO ONE ! not even him giving me depression but my family too . dad why must you treat me good but half way bad again . i really no strength to quarrel with you us . the more i went to think the more i going mad . from yesterday i really wish to take my head & bang the wall . my head was so pain & my whole body it freezing the whole day but why must him making it more worse . all your sweet talk it just BULL SHIT ! just call you bring me go polyclinic & see doctor it was like going to kill your life . not even that it just call you to come find me at polyclinic & i'm crying like do but you the one that scold me like dog . even seem just so simple thing you can't do what the point for both of us together. & i had make up my mind won't give you any chance again . 

I WANT YOU TO REGRET & MAKE YOU KNOW HOW I FEEL WHEN YOU ARE A DOG !